Finding God

I have always doubted god. I wasn’t a believer of higher powers. I always believed that one is in control of one’s own life. That’s what I told others when they asked me about a higher power.

But in all honesty, I wanted to seek a higher power. I sought god. But I found none. I read religious books and philosophy looking for god. I looked into revered men (and women) looking for a clue to find god. But every time I was left disappointed. I felt like I wasn’t getting any closer.

I almost gave up hope because I was convinced that’s there’s no god. If there was one I would have found him already.

Time passed and I was being my useless self, doing all the useless stuff, making a living out of consumerism and my limited intellect. Travelled to Katutura to meet some loved ones and there we saw a dog who was paralyzed waist-down. He dragged his legs along the ground due to paralysis and the wounds stank. My wife looked at the dog and cried. Pleaded with me to help him. It wasn’t easy, the dog needed a lot of help and the villagers mentioned that the dog is beyond saving. I wanted to be practical and deny my wife’s request. I wanted to look away and mind my own business. Suddenly something inside me accused me for being selfish. I knew if I turn my back on this dog now I won’t be able to live with myself anymore.

My father gave the bog a bath, the villagers helped and we brought him to Colombo. He was treated in a vet clinic for a month and got a lot better. My father nursed the dog, regularly bathed him and fed him promptly. Every morning the dog waited for my father and greeted him almost resembling some sort of worship; like he’s grateful.  

There I realized the idea of god is far more complex than we understand it to be. We have personified god as some sort of a being but as far as I’m concerned it’s a state of being. And I also realized that one single idea can galvanize a community to leave behind the individualism and rally around the common good. To witness that is to witness the magic unfold. To witness this meant that I came around the concept of god. I might not have a comprehensive understanding but at least I gathered the general framework of god.

This idea changed my life. I always loved and respected my parents. But from that point onwards I couldn’t look at them as normal human beings anymore. I couldn’t look at my wife as a normal human being anymore, the man who provided an empty box so that we can take the stray cat home, I saw the godliness in him. Godliness took over the tuk driver who drove like a maniac to take the patient to the hospital. I saw the act of god when all vehicles gave way to the incoming ambulance.

I saw that all of us are capable of greater goodness. And how all of us can galvanize others for greater things…!!!!

Vicious Cycle

You ask me what the problem is..the problem is that the doctors think it's alright to go on strike and gamble on patients' lives..

but that's the least of our problems..the real problem is the same doctor who goes on strike in the morning, crawls back to his private practice in the evening..and then you ask me to believe you..

Because they claim that they fight for the right of free education..or to maintain the parity in the salary scales..etc..

may be they are.. The problem is that when you're the coffin maker, people seldom believe that you have a keen interest in their health....

so it's hard to believe what you're saying when you're clearly just a merchant who exploits his own skill...you might say that I'm not understanding the problem or the enemy right now..but who am I to understand all that..I'm just a simple Sri Lankan citizen !!!!!

Small Men

You can be poor with a lot of riches to your name...you can be really tall physically and be a small little man...(thinking along the same lines..now..stay with me on this )...just remember you won't be a real intellect just because you have so many degrees/certificates/experience. But yet we often mistake intellect with education.

It's so amusing to see how people fight not on principles but on lack of common sense. The human decency of this country has stooped to an all-time low. It has come to a point where 'Buddhists' are resorting to violence to 'save the religion and the race' which is unbelievable when you think of the basic principles of Buddhist philosophy (it teaches to avoid the extremes. And that's basically it...!). This is not a cry of help of exhaustion. This is an expression of exhaustion.

People always try massaging their egos by telling themselves that they are proud to belong to a certain race, a religion, a society, a school, a position etc. But there’s nothing in it, really. You might get a kick out of that feeling of belonging, by being a part of a crowd. May be for a while, may be it will be enough to fill all the emptiness and the unpleasantness that surrounds your life…but yet, there’s nothing but small men trying to make themselves feel better… 

Carbon Dioxide: the enemy ?

Enough of this nonsense..
no scientist will classify carbon dioxide as a pollutant, only the politicians would do it...
the earth had several ice ages and has gotten warmer ever since....was it still due to carbon dioxide? 
Please don't tell me that you saw it on TV...!!!!! 
Read my dear...!!!!!

It runs in cycles

'Enough' he said. He started thinking; am I the only one who think that development should be achieved in multiple facets and in integration? 

To have a brilliant student, we need to have brilliant teachers. In order to have a healthy workforce we need to have an educated set of farmers and a dedicated set of doctors who in turn is an output of a brilliant set of teachers.and it goes on... 

Bigger the dream, bigger the man he thought. But what do we do when we are ruled by the narrow minded??

Western medicine and nature

When are we going to realize that the western medical practices are flawed. 
when are we going to realize that the human body works in harmony...and it's all about the balance/harmony/equilibrium between the elements (chemicals, food, weather, etc.). 

Just imagine, when we catch a common cold, the doctor (in our part of the world the physician is refereed to as a doctor) prescribes pills. 
Then we might get a relief from the cold (although there is no cure for the common cold) but our kidneys have to take the wrath of those pills.
similarly when we get cancer the doctor prescribes chemotherapy and operations. 
They cut people open and remove body parts..what about the other complications..the build up of liquids, the imbalance the operations create with the other organs and their functions, side effects and the mental state of that human being after...Do we even care about those? 

In the mist of all this, we have forgotten that we had a medical practice that solely depend on natural products. We have forgotten how to live in harmony with the nature...hmmm

Profits and human lives

We run after money, fame, popularity, comfort, power....
there are no unsung heroes in this world anymore...
the world appreciates the very qualities that they ridiculed a few decades ago..
.we always look for 'what's in it for me?'....

organizations run on profits and they cut down staff to increase their bottom line..but why? 
why not the organizations increase the number of staff and say we provided 1000 more jobs..1000 more livelihoods..
why do we always think that it's okay to send people home and show more profits..

i don't know the reason..the truth is that, it makes me tired to think of this and type in the words...!!!